Recently I have been listening to Sara Bareilles on repeat. Her songs speak to me. She always finds the right words and puts them into beautiful sentences. I don't have a favorite song. I find that the mood I'm in usually determines that for me. Momentarily "Uncharted" is playing in my head...and has been all morning (hence this post). Specifically the following line:
"Compare, where you are to where you want to be, and you'll get nowhere."
In my current state, everything I hoped for and planned for this fall, did not work out. Instead, I am babysitting, subbing, and working toward my masters degree. I thought I had the perfect plan, I had figured it all out. Wrong. In the last couple of months I have continually compared where I am to where I want to be, or where I should have been. Where is that getting me? Nowhere. I'm stuck with "what ifs".
My new challenge is to quit comparing and to find joy in the here and now. A lesson that I come back to every few years. Maybe this wasn't my plan, maybe this is where I am supposed to be regardless, maybe He has the perspective that I could never have, and thus here I am: spending my days with kids of all ages, with a continual research design and educational theory in the back of my mind.
Instead of focusing on where I want to be, I want to find joy in my current circumstances and the blessings that exist there, then maybe I'll get somewhere. But for now, it's all uncharted.
Posted by j. cross at 10:26 AM