freakin' ticking biological clock...



living by McBealisms...

"They say it’s all in the attitude and mine has changed. And I can tell this time it’s gonna last….. maybe even a week."

Ally McBeal has had a part in inspiring me to change my attitude. Or maybe she has just verbalized and reinforced my lately conceived philosophies. Although she had her twenty-something years in the 90s, her McBealisms still very much apply to the 24 year-old, single, working girl in 2011. *

"I've decided to make an adjustment in my social life. I've decided to juggle. Instead of waiting for Mr. Right. I'm gonna take chances on Mr. Not Likelies on the theory of who knows...And I would like you to be one of the balls I keep up in the air."

"I'm not looking for a lifetime. I'm looking for a fun Tuesday night."

"The real truth is I probably don’t want to be too happy, on content, because then what? I actually like the quest, the search, that’s the fun. The more lost you are the more you have to look forward to. What do you know, I’m having a great time and I don’t even know it."

"I think I need to believe that it works. Love. Couplehood. Partnerships. The idea that when people come together they stay together. I have to take that with me to bed every night, even if I'm going to bed alone. That's a McBealism."

To sum up... Sometimes, when you hold out for everything, you walk away with nothing.”

So, just juggle.

*And yes Rachel, I know you have been there and done that (but I chose different quotations and a different angle)


who am I?

so far this weekend I have purchased two very ridiculous items...

tomorrow most likely will be...



I broke a spoon



last year it was eat healthy and exercise more...I stuck to it (mostly). therefore, this year it's:

-write/send cards to friends and family
-wear each item of clothing in my closet (the items I don't wear in the next year I'll give away)
-do sit-ups before bed

(here's for hoping)


raise your hand if you wish it was Christmastime all year...

We Do!

"So wrap those presents, fill those stockings. Love from me to you, to you, to you!"



I've never felt so loved, so peaceful and so free, hey there ain't no doubt that God's been good to me...

...And everything I have, and everything I see is just another reminder that God's been good to me.


out with the old. in with the new.

old: what now suckaaaa?!?

new: SUCK IT!!!!*

*credit goes to an 11th grade student I subbed for (male, long blond hair, classic rock tee, and fanny pack filled with pencils and pens), who ecstatic that there was no quiz, due to the absence of his teacher, proceeded to yell "SUCK IT" while throwing his head back, thrusting his hips forward, and pulling his fists down.


remember when...

This past weekend I had the pleasure of opening a time capsule made in 2006 with some of my closest friends. The magazine cut-out covered shoebox was filled with memories, letters, jokes, and my broken and very much coveted orange scissors. Since May 2006, our friendship has grown in some ways and changed in others. Gabs, Amandaluh, Kait, and I laughed and thoroughly enjoyed our nostalgia filled lunch. The following are the highlights:

remember whens...
remember the time when Amanda wanted to invent a whiteboard t-shirt?
remember those nights spent watching Friends in Morgan's room?
remember the time when Jess lost her scissors, then found them, then broke them?
remember the time Kaitlin, Amanda, and Gabby and Rob went to gspoon and then Kait tried to carry Rob (and she did) and then he shoved his yogurt in her face...then it got messy and se peed her pants but she pretended that she sat in a puddle? But then she felt bad for lying and told Gabs and Amanda?
remember Tif and Tab?
remember when Kait cleaned all the toilets in Laguna?
remember when Gabby, Jess, and Kait, and Johnny made a super long banner for FSB but it blew away?
remember when Jess, Gabs, and Kait went on a roadtrip and Rosie died?
remember when Kait's floor peed in bottles to prank the 7th floor?
remember Gabby's extensions?
remember Kait's bad spooning habits? (sorry Jess)
remember Jess's sunburned knee pits?

favorite songs...
A Jubilant Song, Seasons of Love, Unwritten, Hide and Seek

favorite jokes...
Two fish swim into a concrete wall. The one turns to the other and says "Dam!"
Anytime I see something screech across a room and latch onto someone's neck, and the guy screams and tries to get it off, I have to laugh, because WHAT IS THAT THING!

favorite TV...
24, Friends, Grey's Anatomy

favorite movies...
Rent, The Other Sister, Diary of a Mad Black Woman

most common quotes...
Jess: "That's inapropriate"
Gabs: "Don't judge me"
Amandaluh: "Oh yeeah!"
Kait: "Git some!"

On a different note...I have changed over the past 4 1/2 years, yet in some ways I have stayed the same. In reading the letter I wrote to myself, I was again reminded that I need to live in the present and find joy in the here and now. Apparently, my tendency to worry about the future and my want to control every situation has not changed. Enjoy my silly letter filled with clich├ęs:

Dear me, I know that you want everything to work out a certain way and I know that you are worrying about things left and right, but I want you to know that it is all going to be okay. "Trust Thou in God!!!" Enjoy what is to come and don't worry too much about it. Take the leap that you need to take and trust that God is going to be there with you 100%. Don't freak out. Enjoy today and love the life that God has given you. Remember that you are cared for and cared about. You are loved and you are not abandoned. I love you...now go have fun!!!!!
Love, me

I look forward to the next 5 years and to watching our friendships grow and change yet again, making new memories, and creating more remember whens.


this I miss.

reunited in 2 days.